There are many influences in our childhoods that shape our personality that ultimately mold the person that we are today. But there is nothing like the influence that we receive from our families. Both positive and negative attributes are learned as we transition from childhood to adulthood. At the same time, it can also depend on how we decide to receive those influences. We can take the negatives and turn them into something positive. The choice is ours.
As in the case of Sarah Vowell, she had a strong influence from her father being a gunsmith as she grew up. She developed an immediately dislike for guns after her first experience shooting one at the age of six. This created a distinctive wedge between her and her father that lasted quite a few years. A time came in her life came when she longed for a relationship with her father that she had been missing throughout the years. Sarah came to the decision that she needed to bridge the gap of the distant rivalry that had been between them. As a child reaches out for her father’s hand before crossing the street, Sarah reached out to her father by requesting to see his handmade cannon that he had worked so hard on. And to her amazement she actually enjoyed the excitement of the blast which at the end of the day brought her and her father closer together. Her excitement was so intense that she had a difficult time conveying “the giddiness she felt when the cannon shot off”. (438) The thrill of the blast compelled her to bust out her tape recorder and produce evidence of the memory that brought them together.
Pivotal moments such as these, shape to change our outlook of the relationships with our family members and how we should treasure one another despite our differences. It is beneficial to all to examine the similarities and the differences that we share to development our appreciation each other. Sarah’s appreciation for her father and what he loved was displayed in the way she carried out the ceremony of his death. Knowing his love for his artillery and appreciating his invention of the cannon, she paid the greatest respect to her father; shooting her father's ashes out of his handmade cannon was the ultimate depiction of her father's life and what he stood for. The symbolization of the ceremony would have made him proud.
The need for a parent and child to establish and maintain a close bond is undeniable. When this bond is successful the is an sense of significant accomplishment on both sides. This connection is extremely important to establish before it is too late, before our loving parent is no longer with us. Although there had been stifling road blocks for both, I believe Chang-rae Lee and Sarah Vowel had this situation in common. They both had a longing to be close to their parent before their passing. They both reached out to experience what their parent had a passion about. Chang-rae Lee attempted to cook as his mother did, feeling her passion for food and engaging in their culture of cuisine. And Sarah put forth the effort to experience the excitement that her father felt regarding his love for firearms and understand the accomplishment of his inventions. They both developed an appreciation for their parent and what their parent stood for.
As a daughter myself, the need to maintain a close bond with my father is one of importance. Like Sarah, I have experienced a large wedge between my father and I until about two years ago. The longing for us to have that father-daughter bond was something so deep that I thought would never take place. I took advantage of a situation to extend myself out to my father in his time of need. Surprisingly, he accepted my help and the lines of communication opened and mended the bond that we both had longed for.